Overcoming ADHD

This is a story about a woman who was diagnosed with ADHD in her mid 20’s and through prayer, God’s Word, and His mercy for a slow learner, she overcame the stigma that comes with ADHD. This is my story.

I believe it will help if you know a little bit of the back ground before my diagnosis. I was diagnosed in my mid 20’s because my family and I had NO IDEA that I had ADHD. We only knew what it looked like in my brother, we couldn’t have known it could look different or manifest itself differently in different people.

School was tough if I didn’t like a subject. I struggled through many of my classes. But, I did graduate. Once I did, life was just that much harder. Not being able to concentrate, too many thoughts constantly flooding my brain. *to this day, my brain very rarely rests, but I digress*. This way of life continued, until one day, when I was filling out the paperwork to have my son tested; I found myself able to answer yes for MANY of the questions. So, in 2006 both my son and I were diagnosed with ADHD we took the next step that comes with ADHD, we both started taking medication. We did this on and off for 12 years.

Which brings us back to present day, where this story, my story, takes an amazing turn. Toward the later months of 2017, I was attending a small group at church on Spiritual Warfare; that helped set me free and overcome ADHD. I learned about things like curses; generational and self inflicted. I learned about demonic strongholds. Most importantly though, I learned how to break both curses and strongholds. This is where I started; we were reading a book by Derek Prince called Blessing and Curses; it takes you through the steps to break curses and pull down strongholds; and over time that is exactly what I did. Through the blood of Jesus and His mighty name, I broke the generational curse of ADHD. I tore down the strongholds that came along with it, like allowing the spirit of deception to tell me that I was worthless, because I couldn’t even do something as simple as keeping my kitchen clean.

Now, I had a routine: I woke up, made my coffee, took my pill, and started praying. Many times praying for God’s help that day in concentrating on what I needed to get done and not getting distracted. Believe it or not, no matter how much I prayed, I still could not get motivated to clean the kitchen or any of the other things that a “good home maker” does. What was wrong with me? I found myself asking that question a lot. What is wrong with me, why can’t I make myself do this or do that? I see other people and they don’t struggle like this, what is wrong with me? I was doing everything I knew to do, and nothing was changing.

*Ok, I’m going to go down a bunny trail real quick. Here I was, taking my pills, praying for God to heal me of this affliction, because after all the bible says that He’s a healing God; I wanted to do the right things, I was trying to do the right things. It consumed me, really. But, all I felt, was that I wasn’t measuring up. Nothing I did seemed to work.*

Now back to my regular path. While I was praying one day, again for healing, I heard God tell me, “Daughter, there is nothing to heal. I made you this way for a purpose.” Several times while praying he said this to me. This went on for a week or two, (did I mention sometimes I’m a slow learner?) Then, one of the last times, He explained it a little better and my thoughts started to finally fall into place; He said, ” There is nothing to heal, you just have to renew your mind, and think about it differently.”

* You see, the reason I couldn’t measure up, the reason I always felt like I was failing, the reason I thought I was never good enough, is because essentially I couldn’t measure up, I was failing and it was never good enough. I was trying to fit into someone else’s expectations of what they thought I should be; and in the renewing of my mind, God told me, you can’t fit into the box they are trying to put you in, because that’s not the box I made for you*

As I said earlier, I was still taking my meds this entire time. Now, once I grabbed onto the concept that I didn’t need to be healed, that is where the medication now came into question; along with a specific scripture, that I’ll get to in a minute.  So, God has now renewed my mind, and I’m thinking differently about this, now I’m not praying about healing, now I’m praying for His help. But every morning when I took that pill, I heard His voice say, “You keep asking me for hep, but, you’re not really trusting me to help you.” Then, on January 13, 2018, as I swallowed my pill that morning, I heard God say, “What are you doing? You are putting your trust in the pill instead of putting your trust in me.” So, I made a decision that the following morning I was done. I was going to stop trusting in the meds and start trusting in God’s power in my life. As of January 14th, 2018, I have been off my medication and God has been faithful; my brain does not feel scattered. I no longer feel like I’m being forced into a box that I can’t possibly fit into. The atmosphere around me has completely changed.

I mentioned a scripture earlier, and my go to scripture for this affliction is 2 Timothy 1:7, God did not give you a spirit of fear and timidity, but one of power, love and a sound mind (emphasis added).

Here is what God revealed to me in my searching:

1) You were made exactly this way for a purpose. God made your brain, exactly the way He wants it. It’s how you will fulfill His plans for you life.

2) You cannot fit into ANYONE else’s expectations for you; not even your own. You can only fit into God’s expectations for you.

3) ALL ADHD medication is altering your mind, because that is it’s purpose. (Disclaimer: I am in no way saying to stop taking them. What I am saying is, if your are looking to be healed of ADHD, it is IMPERITIVE that you open up dialogue with God about the way HE made you. You are HIS creation, HE will now better than anyone what you should do.)

4) God is faithful! The bible says, that if you seek, you will find. He will reveal to you ALL you need to know in order to understand. Just don’t give up! Persevere!

Keep Your Head Up

My four year old daughter walks around our house with her head down; more often than not pretending she is a horse. What can I say, she loves horses. While she is walking around in this manner I hear myself (more often than I’d like to) saying to her, “Hanna, keep your head up.” After all, what kind of mother would I be if I let my dear child walk around head down, and a greater potential of harming herself? Ya know, due to the fact that the only thing she can see is the floor and not the wall she’s about to walk into.

On Tuesday, January 30, 2018 I was watching her do this; and although the words, keep your head up, oh man, Hanna keep your head up, circled around in my mind, they didn’t actually make it to the audible state. I believe that is because God was speaking to me about how often He too says these words to His children. It’s like He was highlighting the phrase for me.

Have you ever noticed how often people, myself included, walk around looking down? They do, and I was notorious for this, thinking that if I don’t make eye contact they won’t notice me. Like when you’re a little kid covering your eyes, you think nobody can see you, because you can’t see anyone with your eyes covered? Yeah, same concept. I thought, it would be easier to slip in and slip out of places if I keep my head down; not seeing anyone and not letting them see me or converse with me. I found myself doing this in school, a new job, the grocery store and even and most often at church (sad but true); and if I’m to be completely, 100% honest, I still do this. But, this morning, God has put this phrase on my heart, and I, from this moment forward, will be trusting in Him to strengthen my neck muscles, so that I can, Keep my head up.

Have you ever watched someone walking around looking down, and wondered how they haven’t ran into anything yet, I mean all they can see is their fee and whatever might be on the ground. Sure, they don’t trip, but, they aren’t really aware of their surroundings either. Would you indulge me, by helping me with a little experiment? Don’t worry, it won’t take long. If you can get someone to assist that would be great, if not, it’s ok; you’ll just have to do both things. I’m sure you can handle it though. So, here’s what I want you to do, stand up, and tilt your head down fixing your eyes straight down. Then, write down what you see, yes, even in your peripheral vision. Once you have it written down, stay standing and in the same spot, we’re going to do this again, but this time keep your head up and write down all that you see. Compare the two lists.

How much do we miss when we walk through life with our eyes fixed on the ground, trying to just blend in and not be seen?

Thank you by the way, for helping me with that little illustration.

Why do so many of us walk around like this? Do you think God made you so that you would blend in? No; He made you to be unique! He made you to stand out, that is why He put the brightest light to ever shine on this earth in each and everyone of us, who call him Lord, Savior and Friend.

Who ever you are, no matter what your past holds, you were created intentionally and with purpose; FOR a purpose. You, my dears, both brothers and sisters alike are unique and God is wanting us (me included) to stop walking around with our heads down. He is telling us to keep your head up. Just like I tell my daughter, so she can see where she is going and not run into anything that might hurt her all because she’s looking down.

So, remember, You are alive because you are unique and God has a purpose for you; He has placed inside of you a light that wants to be spread around, shining brightly into the lives of others, so that they too might shine and spread His light. So, Keep Your Head Up, that way you won’t miss the opportunities God has placed before you to shine.

God’s Lighthouse

Hello! I just wanted to welcome you to my first blog post EVER, so please keep that in mind as you read on. I am a newbie, but, we all have to start out somewhere.
On that note, I thought I’d share my God’s Lighthouse devotion on this first post. Yes it’s jumping right in, but, really not sure how to be subtle with this. God gives me topics to write on, and that’s why I’m here, writing on a blog. I pray that God gives you wisdom and revelation as you read this post. In Jesus’ name. Amen

God’s Lighthouse

A while back, as I was reading my bible, I was given a mental image of the similarities between Christ followers and lighthouses; and how as Christ followers we are to shine our light in this dark world, shining our beacon light on the path that leads to our heavenly home with Jesus in eternity.

So, check it out, lighthouses have been around since before Jesus. A lighthouse by definition, is a tower or other structure containing a beacon light to warn or guide ships at sea. They are built in different shapes and sizes; some have lights that are revolving and some have lights that are constant, but in them all, the light never goes out.

You might be wondering how lighthouses represent Christ followers; well, God led me to some scriptures to support the similarities.

Jesus said, “I am the light of the world. If you follow me, you won’t have to walk in darkness, because you will have the light that leads to life.” (John 8:12) Paul wrote in his letter to Corinth, …Your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and was given to you by God. (1 Cor 6:19) John wrote, All who proclaim that Jesus is the Son of God have God living in them, and they live in God. (1 John 4:15) and in Paul’s letter to the people of Philippi, he writes, ‘You are to live clean innocent lives as children of God in a dark world full of crooked and perverse people. Let your lives shine brightly before them.’ (Phil 2:15)

In the first scripture, we see that Jesus is literally the light that will NEVER go out; and in the second verse, it states our bodies are the temple of the Holy Spirit, the place it lives; and, as the third verse states it takes believing and proclaiming that Jesus is the Son of God in order for the Helper or Holy Spirit to dwell within us. So with these three verses, We have become the lighthouse; the structure containing a beacon light to guide or warn…

Now, there’s one more aspect of a lighthouse to consider. The keeper of the lighthouse. The lighthouse keepers are the people who makes sure that no matter what, that light shines bright. I’ll get into that more in my next post. But, if your lighthouse windows aren’t unclean, you can’t expect the light to shine through very brightly; which means, the lighthouse isn’t really fulfilling it’s purpose. Which is why in Philippians 2:15, Paul says, we are to live clean, innocent lives… and let our lives shine brightly.

When I was reading all of these, scriptures, at different points in my relationship with Christ Jesus, it dawned on me what this meant for my calling. You see, God wants all of us to love one another and help one another. My calling is to help and to encourage people in their walk/relationship with Jesus.

As we grow and mature in Christ, His light begins to shine brighter and brighter inside of us; but, what are we doing with it?

I propose, we do precisely what Paul says, and let our lives shine brightly in this dark world.

Will you join me in this lighthouse journey?

Lord, I thank you for the light of your Spirit and ask for your help, taking every opportunity, to shine it brightly, guiding and encouraging others searching for the right Way. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Thank you for stopping by, hope you enjoyed this post.